Christmas Eve

Hello, Its Friday night, and I am here, alone, at my house, at a computer. Sigh. Its ok tho, it could be worse. I could be stuck out in the snow with no where to go, and no one to care! :) I have a wonderful family, and a few wonderful friends I am so glad to have. I have been thinking about you alot lately. Yea, well, Christmas was a big deal when we were together, and when I think of christmas, now I think of you. You know, how you would get all excited about it, and how you would love to build a fire in the fireplace and make homemade New England Clam Chowder for supper, then spend the night sleeping by the fireplace listening to the crackle and pop of the fire. You know, how you brought over your favorite Christmas movies and fell asleep beside me that night while I was watching them with you because you had gone to my friends work and had a drink without me. I went to see my brother tonight. Seems like all we do when we get together the two of us any more is talk about finding someone and settling down, and its not me who starts it. I feel bad for him. I wish I could find someone wonderful and set her on his doorstep for him.... If I did do that tho, he probably wouldn't look twice at her, just because I had brought her around. I'm pretty happy how I am, yes. Mostly. Sometimes. Sometimes I cry tho...