Camo

Wow... two years later I look back, and my heart hurts for the one I used to be, tho, the one I used to be is not so much different than the one I am now, except for inside. Inside the Lord has picked up where I had jumped into sin, and continued the amazing work that he started years and years ago. He has picked me up out of the mess I got myself into, and set me on a strong firm rock. I am safe.

I still am alone, yet I am never alone, He is always by my side, and more and more I feel His presence chasing away the hurt of not having someone to love me. 

The pain of not being in the Father's will was so much worse than anything he allows me to face these days. Even when I have a bad day, I know without a doubt that I have been protected by His love.

I left a relationship that kept me from Him. God is a jealous God, He truly wants to be the center of our world. When relationships keep Him from that place, invariably if we want to be in His will, He will either teach us the right way, or if its not a godly relationship in the first place remove us from it. Today, I truly feel loved for the fact that He loves me that much.

I always wanted someone to be jealous over me ;).

This last weekend I went shopping with my amazing little sis, and found a shirt, much different than anything I have ever worn! But today.. that is me, I love wearing new stuff, and colors, BRIGHT colors! This was NEVER me before!!!! I know God has been doing a marvelous change in me, because of this and many many other changes in my 'personality'. I want to be who I am, there is no abnormal fear of what others think, and if someone says they don't like something about me, or who I am, I just laugh, and I'm ok with it! (As long as its not something God needs to work on me about). I LOVE it! :D. Today, I am wearing a top that is Camo, and the shoulders are Lace... ;). I like it. My brothers all hate it, My sister says I look nice in it, and my Dad said he really liked it yesterday. :)